By Zerline Hughes
I’m on the D.C. Metro Train at rush hour. It’s a rarity that I ride the subway — take public transportation even — these days.
I’m surrounded by people (one of the reasons I don’t appreciate public transportation) but was able to snag a seat for a change, watching people around me stand in discomfort. On this day, only certain faces stand out. The faces of my Black men.
One wore light brown, wing-tipped oxfords with grey slacks. Another had lace up work boots with navy, uniform pants. There’s four more within eye shot that I notice with great detail. They all look to be leaving work — maybe some of them on their way to a late shift.
They stand out more today than ever because on this day, we got a second grand jury decision about the killing of yet another Black man by yet another police force: Eric Garner. Another Black male gone. No redemption, no raparations, no attempt at the restoration of justice, life.
I’m pretty serious about wanting to flee from this all. Maybe I should have nothing to fear as a Black woman (highly doubtful) — but I am fearful because I’m currently the sole provider for a Black male, and I will be for another seven years. Hey, let’s be real — I will provide my son something — casseroles, unwanted advice, childcare for his children (only every once in a while) — for the rest of my life, no matter how old he is. And what a blessing that will be. But at the rate we’re going, guaranteeing our Black men survive to see their golden years is starting to seem like a fantasy.